Monday, 30 May 2011

365 Self Love Project (#39)

Thing I love about myself  (30/5/11)

That I'm finally starting to get my weight under control.

I had a massive shock-horror after seeing a picture of myself at my cousin's wedding; I looked worse than fat: I looked obese and (somehow) stupid! My clothes looked awful (not exactly what you want when you're finally starting to get into fashion!) and - as pathetic as this is - I burst into tears and cried for a whole hour after seeing that photo. But then I developed a steely resolve and fast forward just one week to today, and I have already lost 3lbs! :D 
It hasn't been smooth sailing, there have been some cupcake casualties (damn you York for having such lovely bakeries!) and even a pizza, but I've made a start, and I have high hopes that I'll be back to my sexy self by graduation at the end of July  ;)

Weekly Goals

By heck! I don't think I've done one of these for over 2 months! But this week is shaping up to be a bit of a busy one, so here goes... 

  • Call Roehampton (to sort out some drama involving my keys :p)
  • Call Sheffield Uni to organise a visit afternoon to look at the Philosophy dept.
  • Write content for Pandoala (honest!)
  • Write random articles
  • Find a cheap exercise bike (any suggestions/recommendations would be greatly appreciated!)
  • Write the entrance essay for Leeds Uni
  • Apply for jobs
  • Exercise lots!
  • Tidy room
  • Keep a food/calorie and exercise diary
  • Set up a results spreadsheet ready for the final exam/dissertation results being released next week (eek!)
  • Avoid candy like the plague! - if my grades are good, there will be chocolate and pizza galore on the 8th! ;)

Sunday, 29 May 2011


I'm so sorry, again I have been neglecting this blog! There's one pretty huge reason, surrounding the fact that this blog is meant to be a happy place and one where I get to be all excitable, hopeful and optimistic. But I'm sad to say that hasn't been my frame of mind recently.

Fortunately, I'm starting to feel better now and so this, plus the fact that (with the exception of 6th-9th June) I'm a little less busy over the coming weeks means that I will honestly try to contribute a little more to this blog  :)

It's a bit late in the day to adequately update tonight, so for now please enjoy a photo which half-explains the recent quietness: a photo from mine and Damien's recent trip to York to see Dylan Moran perform  :)

Damien on a very windy bridge near York station  :)

Sunday, 15 May 2011


It appears that I have been really quite absent recently; this is mostly down to an array of dramas combining devastatingly with my finals. But the finals are at least out of the way, and even though many of the aforementioned dramas are ongoing, there's nothing I can really do about them and so I can now return to give Pandoala my all  :)

But there's likely to be some changes around here - now don't get me wrong, this blog will still be aimed at radical self love, at inspiration, at battling my apparent addiction to inaction and also to an attitude of gratitude, but I feel like I can do it all in a much more interesting and coherent way.

First of all, the Radical Self Love 365 list will no longer be a daily thing: it's too difficult for me to keep up with and often results in cluster posts which are neither pleasant on the eye, nor are they particularly fun to read or to write. As such, I will still aim to list 365 things that I love about myself, but I will be doing them three-four times a week until I hit the 365 target (rather than doing it every day for a year).

Secondly, I want to put more inspirational things to do: so in addition to my weekly goals (which aim to keep me on track) I'll also have more long-running and inspirational to do lists running parallel to the website - so in addition to stuff like "Finish CV" "Read a chapter of the text book" and so on, you'll also be seeing things like "Get a piercing" "Go to a festival" "Drink Butterbeer in Harry Potter World" and so on  :D

Happy Things Thursday is here to stay but I'm thinking of giving it a bit of a makeover - so watch this space! ;)

Also new: If the mood grabs you, you can now also email me at  :D

And finally, I am formulating some plans for a sister site! It's going to take a lot of planning and there's still a long way to go (although I may have sorted out the name! :3) so I don't want to say too much right now - but, once again, watch this space!  :D

So yes, these are the changes that will be appearing on this website over the coming days/weeks/months so here's to a whole new chapter in my life (now that finals and (therefore) university is done) and to a new chapter for Pandoala  :D

Thursday, 12 May 2011

Happy Things Thursday

This has been a very academic week so forgive me if this week's Happy Things Thursday is a little academic  ;D

Damien never ceases to amaze me :)
  • I've now finished all my exams - no more academic exams ever again!
  • I've finished uni! Now I get to get excited about the next chapter of my life  :3
  • The prospect of all the wonderful things I'm going to fill my spare time with now I no longer have to revise: I have a lot of plans and lists to make!
  • The prospect of going out for a meal and cocktails with my amazing best friend and my gorgeous boyfriend at my most favourite bar in the world!
  • Once again: my boyfriend being obscenely talented (see the picture! :D)
  • Getting a job interview to work as a sales & Marketing assistant at a company that makes the most beautiful stationary and gifts! :D (they contacted me less than an hour after I'd applied! Fingers crossed for next Thursday!)
  • Getting my stuff back from my ex and having a civil conversation with him to boot
  • Having a good feeling about how the exams went - fingers crossed for results day!
  • Having a few chapters of the lovely Gala Darling's Love and Sequins ready to read now that I have the time - I cannot wait! :D
  • Classic Coke bottles! I'm getting mine tomorrow - expect pictures!  ;)
  • The hilarious night out I had with my friends last Friday :D
  • Going a whole 6 days without sweet stuff - I haven't been quite as well behaved for the rest of this week, but next week I'll behave, I promise  ;)
  • Starting packing - I'll be a true Yorkshire girl once again this time next week!  :D
  • Finding out that my Dad's going to finally get to see my uni this weekend! Exciting!  :3
  • Finally finding out where Brenda's cafe got moved to at uni - I've wanted to go there since first year!

Thursday, 5 May 2011

Happy Things Thursday

Again, I'm running a little late - so here's a sort of bumper edition!  ;)
by Damien ♥ (and yes, that's a TARDIS :p)
  •  Getting an Easter egg from Damien - my first ever from a boyfriend!  ♥
  • Milkshakes with my best friend (he finally drank a flavour other than vanilla!)
  • Girly talk and cocktails with my other best friend (who I hadn't seen in the longest time!)
  • Starting to feel as though I might be able to remember everything in time for my final Continental Philosophy exam! (as for Wittgenstein, time will tell, but I'm optimistic :))
  • The corgi advert. Still.   :p
  • My tiny little brother's crutches - I'm gutted that he's broken his leg, but a 7-year-old on bright yellow crutches is too cute to handle! Pics soon!  ;)
  • Roasting marshmallows with the family on Good Friday
  • Playing (and winning!) Friends Scene It
  • Pretty new clothes - even if they will be too big by July  ;p
  • The realisation that in less than a week I'll be free of uni work
  • ...and I'll be free of exams forever to boot!
  • Planning how I'll celebrate the aforementioned finishing of exams
  • Starting to get onto good terms with my ex (we've still a long way to go, but I'm optimistic we can now be friends one day :))
  • A yummy meal at TGI Fridays with Damien for our half-aversary (our 6-month anniversary ;)) ♥
  • That I have a terribly talented boyfriend! (see picture)
  • I've gone 5 days (and counting!) without any sweet stuff! 
  • Anticipation for Bush's birthday this weekend
  • I'm moving home next week! :D I'll be a true Yorkshire lass once again!   ;)
  • The Royal Wedding - I'm not much of a royalist, but it was beautiful - plus I welled up when Wills said "you look beautiful" to Kate Catherine ♥
  •  Getting inspired and motivated to start writing in earnest once my exams are done and dusted! :D