Thursday, 28 April 2011

365 Self Love Project (#38)

Thing I love about myself of the day (26/4/11)

How overexcited I get about fairly 'ickle landmarks

Tomorrow is mine and Damien's 6 month anniversary of our first night out as a proper couple. And, naturally, I'm making a big deal out of it :D  But watching Modern Family has at least shown me I'm not the only one (and good thing too, I love Gloria! <3  :P)

Tuesday, 26 April 2011

Inspiration for Friday's picnic?

tea vs cupcake by minette.
tea vs cupcake, a photo by minette. on Flickr.

Whether or not you're a royalist, how could you possibly resist an excuse to have cupcakes and tea?! <3


365 Self Love Project (#37)

Thing I love about myself of the day (26/4/11)

That I might actually be almost entirely over my ex. 
I don't want to throw myself a pity-party here so I'll endeavour to keep this as under the old hat as possible (if that makes any sense at all :p). Basically it has been almost 7 months since the man who I dated for 6 years (and for much of that we were engaged as well) called time on the relationship. I thought I'd never recover, and as recently as March I was still struggling with the crushing pain of it (even though I had (and have!) the wonderful Damien, the hurt and pain of October 4 didn't subside much). 
But I received an email from him last week detailing something awful that had happened to him (he only emailed me because this awful thing meant he couldn't take my stuff to my uni for me, otherwise we don't communicate lest it cause confusion/further pain). For the life of me I could not have predicted my reaction to the email: yes there was a genuine concern for what had happened to him and a rage at those who had caused it, but every last emotion was more platonic than I've ever felt towards him before: I even hoped- sincerely hoped- that his new girlfriend was looking after him. And no longer felt an ounce of jealousy towards her about it either.

I'm under no illusions: I know I still have a long way to go (for instance, I still have no idea how I'd feel/react if I heard his voice, saw him on the street or even saw a recent photo of him) but this is the most at peace with the whole situation that I think I've felt to date. And I have a lot of positive feeling that it's going to keep getting better - touch wood!  ;)

365 Self Love Project (#34 - 36)

Thing I love about myself of the day (23/4/11)

How excited I am about the Royal Wedding.

I'm not really much of a Royalist, but the prospect of an excuse to fill up a day with vintage dresses, china tea cups (containing juice, then apple tea, then maybe even cocktails!) is just too much of a delight to bear! Tragically, almost everyone I know is still having to work on Friday (retail bods :() but even so Damien (being lovely) has promised to spend the day with me in any way I see fit - picnics, cupcakes, bunting and oversized fascinators included ;)

Thing I love about myself of the day (24/4/11)

That I applied for a mind-boggling 22 jobs in one day!

It took up all my day (and may have been the reason why I didn't start my revision on Sunday!) and I might not even hear back from any of them - but at least I'm out there and trying my hardest!

Thing I love about myself of the day (25/4/11)

That I didn't have a pudding at the restaurant.

This might not sound a lot, but to me this is progress. Although admittedly I did end up having some candy once Damien and I got back to his, this doesn't diminish the fact that I resisted the call of the chocolate fudge cake, of the Belgian waffles with chocolate sauce, of the cheese cake, and so on...

365 Self Love Project (#30 - 33)

Oh gosh! I can't believe how far behind I let myself get! Bad Roxy! Lemme get right on it!
Thing I love about myself of the day (19/4/11)

That I can do the impossible if I need to!

Having to perfect/re-write/correct an 11,000 word piece of work in one night? Apparently I possess that ability! I love what I can do when I set my mind to it!

Thing I love about myself of the day (20/4/11)

That I rediscovered Sorbet!

Super low fat, low calorie, cold and super delicious? Oh Raspberry Sorbet! Why did I ever let you go before?!

Thing I love about myself of the day (21/4/11)

That Damien and I won the quiz for my Dad's team.

Well... They didn't actually win. But had they listened to Damien's answer as well as my own then they would have done! :p

Thing I love about myself of the day (22/4/11)

That I am still the single best Marshmallow Toaster in my family!

Sunday, 24 April 2011

Today's Realisation

I am not the career that I do or do not have, or that I do or do not desire. I am not  the grades or qualifications I have or are going to have. I am not the salad I do not eat; or the chocolate that I do. I am not my dress size or my BMI.

I am the girl who gets overexcited at cute animals. I am the girl who gets excited when she finds the perfect birthday card or present, and whose heart fills with sorrow when the person to whom that present would be given is no longer by her side. I am the girl who listens to, watches or reads something she loves too many times until she no longer loves it. I am the girl who is obsessed with cuddles, who can't always sleep without her piggy. I am the girl whose dreams centre around a pretty study, a yappy dog, a guinea pig or two, and a man who makes her heart soar. I am the girl who is obsessed with the smell of vanilla and who spends much of her money on baking ingredients but never gets round to using them. I am the girl who attaches senitmentality to things to the point of absurdity, and who has a fierce passion for languages, even if she can't remember them most of the time.  I am the girl who loves until it hurts, and then loves some more.

I am that girl, Roxy.

For some people, Easter involves Church sermons and a quaint English roast afterwards.

For my family, it involves fire (a lot of fire), marshmallows, and improvised poking devices.

I assume that both involve chocolate…  ;p

Happy Easter to every one of you lovely people who celebrate it - and happy chocolate day/Sunday if you don't  ;)

Monday, 18 April 2011

365 Self Love Project (#29)

Thing I love about myself of the day (18/4/11)

How productive I've been today! :)

The Freeview HD Corgi Advert - 60 seconds

The Corgis go to the Royal Wedding

The cutest thing ever! And a terribly good method of cheering yourself up ;)

Sunday, 17 April 2011

365 Self Love Project (#25 - 28)

Being away plus being busy plus my laptop buying the farm (RIP Lappy!) equals one absent Roxy - Sorry!

Thing I love about myself of the day (14/4/11)

That I can still read tab and still play the opening riff to Lemuria on guitar 
(despite having not touched a guitar for over a year!).

Thing I love about myself of the day (15/4/11)

How I react to the Royal Wedding Corgi Advert.

The Royal Wedding between Kate Middleton and Prince William is now less than 2 weeks away and Britain seems to be going Royal Wedding crazy! Utilising the event to advertise its HD service, Freeview has launched an advert depicting the journey of 3 squee-worthy, adorable little corgis down to London to watch the Royal Wedding on a HD TV in a house full of other squishy little corgis. I cannot cope with this advert. The first time I saw it, Damien walked in to find me almost in tears at the advert, and I've taken to running downstairs every time I hear the accompanying music. I don't care that it's unbecoming for a 22 year old to act in such a manner - I love that advert and I love my reaction to it!  :D

Thing I love about myself of the day (16/4/11)

My panda tattoo.

It's a symbol of me (I'm obsessed with pandas to the extent that that's what people associate with me!), it's happy and cute (which at times I'd like to think I am as well!) and it shows me that I can get through most things if I put my mind to it (even if I have to sing to get through the pain... and annoy the tattoo artist as I do so!). Plus it looks kind of cool  :3   Here it is just after I had it done...

It looks much less red-raw now!  :3

Thing I love about myself of the day (17/4/11)

That I have written (what seems to be!) a half-decent 11,000-word dissertation on a subject I taught myself.

I finished my dissertation today.
I'm a little paranoid that it might only be worth a 2:1 (I'm a perfectionist :p) but I'm damn proud of what I've achieved. All the more so because I had to teach myself how to write about bioethics (I've written ethics papers before but this one is a) a specialist branch of applied ethics, and b) almost 4 times longer than the last ethics paper I wrote!). 
So I'm proud of myself for putting in the blood sweat and tears. I'm proud of myself for teaching myself bioethics. And I'm damn proud of just plain getting it done!  :)

Thursday, 14 April 2011

Happy Things Thursday

The Snugglable boyfriend <3
  • Nutella cake with home-made icing
  • Getting into Manchester Uni
  • Getting into Sheffield Philosophy
  • The good aspects of my exam timetable changing randomly.
  • Having such a snugglable boyfriend  :3
  • Having such an adorable (and talented!) little brother
  • Dad confirming that he will be taking the family (and Damien) out for Chinese food
  • Getting excited at the prospect of spending 4 whole days (uninterrupted) with the boyfriend  <3
  • Fantastic photos from a fantastic night out
  • Exciting plans for the days ahead
  • The scary (but exciting!) thought that I have less than 4 weeks of Undergraduate education and assessments left
  • The scaredy duck in Shrek Forever After!  :p
  • Lemon meringue pie! ^.^
  • The prospect of more cocktails than I can shake a stick at with my amazing friends tonight!  :D

Wednesday, 13 April 2011

365 Self Love Project (#24)

Thing I love about myself of the day (13/4/11)

That I got into Sheffield Uni for MA Philosophy.

When I did my A-levels, I got such lame grades that I couldn't have gotten into Sheffield U if I had wanted to. Now, 4 years on and I've been accepted for a Masters degree at one of the best Philosophy departments in one of the best unis in the UK.
And I am damn proud!  :D

Tuesday, 12 April 2011

365 Self Love Project (#23)

Thing I love about myself of the day (12/4/11)

My cheekbones.

Even when I'm all squishy (as I currently am) they still look rather nice  :3

Monday, 11 April 2011

365 Self Love Project (#22)

Thing I love about myself of the day (11/4/11)

That I squeak and get entirely too overexcited at cute things.

Whether it's a micro pig on TV or a yawning gerbil in the gift shop, I'll squeak and (occasionally) fall over with glee at the sight of the thing ;)

Sunday, 10 April 2011

A photo a day: 10/4/11

Note to self - just because you didn't leave it outside doesn't mean it's safe from melting  ;p

Weekly Goals

Week Commencing 11th April 2011...

  • Call Leeds Uni to discuss me sitting in on a lecture next week
  • Call Manchester Uni regarding my supporting documents (so much chaos!)
  • Call Roehampton Accommodation to sort out rent
  • Write the small essay (writing sample) for Leeds Uni application
  • Record revision podcasts for Continental Philosophy
  • Record revision podcasts for Wittgenstein
  • Proof-read dissertation
  • Email supervisor to check that my dissertation (as it is) is ok
    • Organise printing dissertation/Update dissertation (depending on her response)
  • Post another philosophy outfit post ;)
  • Have bullet-pointed my revision notes for the Wittgenstein exam
      • Powerpoint format
      • On flashcards
  • Burn 2000 calories over the course of the week.
  • Go get wasted with my awesome friends!  ;D

Medieval Philosophy

Medieval Philosophy
Medieval Philosophy by ryukenvy featuring a chain necklace
After a hiatus, I thought I'd have another go at trying to invent an outfit to go with each of the modules of my philosophy degree. From term 1 of year 1, I present: Medieval Philosophy. I know it's not exactly amazing, and I did use a lot of creative license - but it's next to impossible for someone with such a new and basic grasp of fashion to follow such a theme without having the end piece look like something we'd attribute to the wardrobe of a LARPing hippy... ;p

Happy Things Thursday - Belated Edition!

Again, I'm sorry for the delay - it seems that coming home for Easter is a busy business!

So yes, things that have made  me grin like a Cheshire Cat this week...
  • Getting into Sheffield Law!
  • Gorgeous (hot!) sunny days 
  • Being back home- that means...
    • Access to massive groups of friends, 
    • Pestering my family (my brother still looks small, though!) 
    • The countryside 
    • Cheap booze and food! ;D
    • Amongst a billion other things...   :)
  • Making best friends laugh like loons in too-loud rock bars
  • Pitchers of Sex on the Beach and Purple Rain with the boyfriend
  • Puns about Sex on the Beach with my aunty  ;)
  • Murals appearing in Rotherham (see picture)
  • Pub lunches with another best mate
  • Yawning gerbils in pet shops
  • Margaret - aka the pot of flowers I got for Damien's kitchen
  • Perfecting my recipe for Nutella cake - Yum!
  • Kicking more arse than ever at the gym - 1,150 calories in 2 days! (no wonder my legs hate me! ;))
  • Getting into jogging (even if my knees are falling out with me as a result!)
  • Chicken BLT and the yummiest Chocolate Fudge cake ever- it'll all make me fat, but it was worth it!

365 Self Love Project (#18 - 21)

I've been both forgetful and away in equal measure  ;)

Thing I love about myself of the day (7/4/11)

That I'm drinking more and more water.

And less and less pop  :)  (although I'm still on a can a day while I have my main meal, but trust me - this is progress!)

Thing I love about myself of the day (8/4/11)

That I still get overexcited at seeing my Dad when he comes home from work.

My Dad is working away in Bournemouth until the end of June and only comes home on weekends - and I was uber excited at his coming home this weekend  :)  Indeed I'm going over to his later today to watch Despicable Me  ^.^

Thing I love about myself of the day (9/4/11)

That I'm getting more and more excited about fashion.

I have always had a passive interest in clothes, but previously my wardrobe has consisted primarily of dark blue and black (jeans and black metal band shirts) but I'm getting more and more girly, drooling over designers (Iron Fist and Betsey Johnson - all your clothes will be mine! ;)) and even getting inspired to attack Polyvore with my dream outfits for when I've shifted this post-break up weight  :)

Thing I love about myself of the day (10/4/11)
(bit of a long one!)

That I have kicked so much arse over my undergrad degree that I'm guaranteed a 2:1.

During a very curious moment, I worked out what my grade average would be if I screwed up the assessments that I have left to do in order to complete my undergraduate degree. I have the equivalent of 4 modules left (2 single modules (exam assessed) and a double module (dissertation). If I were to attain a 40 for all of these modules (the lowest possible mark you can attain without failing) I would still graduate with a 66 - a strong 2:1; enough to take my place in at Sheffield Law school.
I'm so proud because this proves how amazingly I've done over the last year and a half (even with everything that's happened); I love myself for getting through it, and for kicking so much arse  :D

Wednesday, 6 April 2011

365 Self Love Project (#16) & (#17)

I realise that I may have screwed up in that I forgot to do my 'Thing I love about myself'' yesterday, so I'll try and do both in one post:

Thing I love about myself of the day (5/4/11)

My weird-ass accent.

I was born in Yorkshire but had a relatively RP accent until I was 17 (when I met my broad Yorkshire friend Bush), and then I moved to London for 4 years. This combined with my accidental ability to acquire other people's accents (including my ex's) has made for a hell of a mix bag of an accent.
And for some reason, I just love it :D
I love that people down south always know I'm northern, and yet some people up t'north think I'm southern... and that some people have absolutely no idea! :P

Thing I love about myself of the day (6/4/11)

That I got snapped up by Sheffield Law.

Maybe saying 'snapped up' is a little cocky, but considering how the head of law received my references yesterday evening, and then emailed me this morning (at 8am!) to offer me a place is a perhaps something to be rather proud of   ;D

It's the little things

Yesterday (well, Monday) it was the 6 month 'anniversary' of being dumped by the man I gave 6 years of my life to. What's more, it took til Tuesday afternoon to realise this, and to realise that I didn't think about him once that day.

Normally I spend the 4th of the Month (especially if it falls on it Monday) a miserable soul, even though I'm no longer with him, even though I'm happy with Damien, the reject and betrayal still stings.

But yesterday I worked, I exercised, I cuddled Damien, I watched TV.

And I didn't once think about him or the break up.

I think I'm turning a hell of a corner, and I think it's because I'm starting to like and respect who I am...   :)

Tuesday, 5 April 2011

My dazzlingly gorgeous friend Robyn has started her own Blogger blog, you should go check it out!

Monday, 4 April 2011

A photo a day: 4/4/11

An oldie but a goody - Piggy back in 2008  :D
Everyone's loving this photo since I rediscovered it. I'm thinking of making a piggy fan club! ;)

365 Self Love Project (#15)

Thing I love about myself of the day (4/4/11)

That I was so super productive today!  :D

Today was a good day, I wrote an essay, updated my dissertation, emailed various people regarding my MA applications, returned 8 books, took out some books for my proposed side project, and burned 500 calories at the gym.

Weekly Goals

Week Commencing 4th April 2011  (today!)

I go back home on Wednesday, so there's not a lot on this week at the moment - although I'll add things as and when I think of them!  :)
  • Update dissertation
  • Write final revision essay
  • Burn 700 calories at the gym
  • Burn 800-1000 calories at home
  • Go out on the lash with the gang!  ;)

365 Self Love Project (#14)

Thing I love about myself of the day (3/4/11)

That I get over-involved in watching films and shows.

I was almost in tears watching 13 Going On 30 this afternoon, and I even felt physically out of sorts at the prospect of  the main character being perceived as a bitch when she no longer was. I sometimes even find myself forcing a detachment from the drama of a scene. And I still cry at Futurama.   ;)

A photo a day: 3/4/11

Le nom: Home-made Nutella cake with side stuff  :p  :)

Sunday, 3 April 2011

365 Self Love Project (#13)

Thing I love about myself of the day (2/4/11)

That I still get overexcited at Disney films.

A big thank you goes to The Princess and the Frog for pointing this out to me  ;)

A photo a day: 2/4/11

I know, I'm behind...
Here's an old one but a good one   :)

Saturday, 2 April 2011

365 Self Love Project (#12)

Thing I love about myself of the day (1/4/11)

That I can still surprise myself at the gym.

This morning I was exhausted, barely awake, and getting out of bed felt like the biggest ask in the world. I still forced myself to go to the gym, and 70 calories in it was doubtful I'd even manage to get to 100 cals - then before I knew it I was on 500 calories (and eager to do more!).

Even after 3 years of going to gyms, it seems I can still surprise myself of what I'm capable of there  :)

Friday, 1 April 2011

365 Self Love Project (#11)

Thing I love about myself of the day (31/3/11)

That I am getting more and more interested in losing weight the healthy way.

Rather than my usual tack of starving myself, and depriving myself, I'm getting more and more into the idea of working out and being fit rather than thin. It's almost like the new me is appearing, and I love it  :D

Happy Things Thursday

  • Sarah Millican at Bloomsbury Theatre - it was like a night in with the girls - albeit a terribly impersonal one with 400 others ;p
  • Sadie times!
  • Handing in my final piece of non-dissertation coursework for my undergraduate degree
  • Being told that Sheffield Uni are "very interested" in my application for the MA in Biotechnological Ethics and Law  :D
  • Watching obscene amounts of The Ricky Gervais Show and Spaced.
  • Lazy evenings playing Professor Layton games.
  • Getting tips on the upcoming exams from my awesome lecturer
  • Having the first Sartre lecture since 2006 
  • Cuddles with Damien  ♥♥ 
  • Kicking it at the gym :D
  • Losing (at least!) 0.25" off my waist
  • Super candy times! :P
  • Getting nearly all of the reading done for the revision essays
  • Hilarious rants by the oddly-gorgeous David Mitchell
  • Sending off some of my references
  • Planning get-togethers with my friends back home  :D
  • The knowledge that, this time next week, I'll be home  :3